Just got confirmation of what my heart already knew. I am devestated, hurt and so very angry at the world right now.
I honestly don't know what to do with my life. I gave up a career. I have made my whole life about becoming a mother and I am not sure how to find meaning in anything.
I resent other people's happiness and joy and I can't see how I am ever going to be happy again. I am even willing to cut all ties with my family and DH's family so I don't have to subject anyone else to my heartache. Their lives are continuing...there are babies being born and people trying to have babies and I just can't be around it without feeling sorry for myself. I wish I could move away and start all over. Running from things is my best defense.
I have moved
10 months ago